Pain Into Purpose

The day has been a rollercoaster of emotions

Twists and turns of plot twists with no end

Carelessly allowing the anxiety to seep in

An outbreak of sensations occurred for the win

Exhaustion creeps through my veins 

And sometimes I wonder am I going insane

I desire peace to be my sunrise and sunset

Yet sadly I don’t believe we’ve met

With the chaos of life and it’s stressors 

My life seems all to be a blur

From birth to now I wonder why me

From birth to now I wonder can we

Work together to find harmony 

Or will be suffer to only be a melody

Because the selection has been written with errors to match

Dealing with intimidation yet I thought I was the perfect catch 

I guess not since another decision was made 

I need a system reboot can somebody please get Cade

Unfortunately but fortunately this door was closed

And the true intentions of others were exposed 

There is something out there much sweeter for me to taste 

Yet I have to endure the bitterness straight faced

Let God Love

This morning I decided to ignore my Affirmation App and it kept popping up at the bottom of my phone. I downloaded this app to assist with affirming positive things into my life on a daily basis. I finally decided to open the app and read the message for the day. And this is what it stated. In the mist of all the pain and suffering my spirit is feeling, God is telling me I deserve love. Not just human love. But Agape Love! God wants to love me for who I am. Despite all my shortcomings, mistakes, flaws and sins, God says I want you to love you fully and completely. I know I’m not perfect. And I’m not proud of my past. But God doesn’t care about all that. My past is dead to God. And I’m alive as a new creature in His sight. I’m grateful to God for His endless grace and mercy. I don’t feel worthy at all but God says I am through Christ Jesus. I make myself available to you God to love me fully and completely. My storage is empty and I am available to you!!! 

  

Identity Crisis

Each day she contemplates on the facade she will have to personify 

In order to mask the pain within her soul just to get by

It has been many moons since she has proceeded to engage in this ritual 

As it merges with her flesh and seeps into her mental

She begins to identify more with these masks that she wears

Because it is better to hide behind them then mend her heart that tears

Her lover broke her spirit and her world judges her taste

Currently she has no choice but to identity erase

She no longer knows who she is anymore

And every man who expressed interests she denies their attempt to explore

Damaged goods is all she can see when she looks into the mirror 

Crying in her sleep yet it is not because of any night terrors 

Her soul is hurt and she cannot recognize whom God created her to be

The only way you will know her pain is if you look beyond the mask as her eyes tell a story awaiting to be set free

  

There Shall Be Glory After This

Thanksgiving is tomorrow but it doesn’t feel the same 

Maybe it is all the hate and crime in the world afflicting pain 

The heart of God aches for His children to be at peace with one another 

Yet it seems like we only hold each other back from reaching further 

Sad but true and I’m grateful for all that I have in my life

Because with His grace and mercy it holds me to be suffice 

I only pray that this earth heals from its broken axis 

Then maybe we can rotate in a direction of reaching our divine access

Into a time where we uphold ourselves as what were originally created to be

Where there is no sin and our minds are completely free

To love one another with kindness and authenticity 

Without allowing ourselves to serve false idols and deities

My hope is that we come together as not just a world but as a human race

As we continually seek our Father’s face

Because in times like this we need Him more than ever

I’m thankful His love can never be severed 

For we need you Lord as our souls cry out night and day

Yet I have faith in you God because you always make a way 

Grateful for your presence in a world that attempts to cast you out

God is about to reveal Himself and show this world what the book of Revelation is all about 

  

Here I Am

I prayed for serenity and God granted me peace

He said depression and anxiety must now cease 

Because where I am taking you next requires your full attention 

For the struggle is over; it’s on permanent suspension 

The journey God has called for me to explore 

Leads me to complete the purpose He has destined me for 

I am bold and courageous as He instructed Joshua to be

With the strength of Samson that causes the enemy to flee 

The patience of Job and the humility of Paul 

Thank God he transformed my heart because I use to be like Saul 

Yet I am destined for great things like Joseph and Solomon 

The devil thought he had me but I no longer live in sin  

You see because I am connected to the One who has all power 

I know I am equipped with anointing because He is my strong tower

As long as I live right and be obedient like Abraham 

I can stand in the gap and rebuild the wall for I am a Kingdom Man, HERE I AM

  

Love Conquers All

Love is a risk that most are afraid to take

Because of the possibility of the other being fake 

Hearts have broken and ties have been severed

Commitment no longer seems to be anyone’s endeavor

The media has tainted what love and relationships should be 

While legs are opened loosely and dangling free 

Because there is a disconnect with morals and principles 

If communication and understanding would be used it could all be so simple 

Yet no one wants to work or fight for longevity 

Instead they are more concerned with other people’s tea

Focus on your own personal affairs

Before you end up dealing with affairs 

The lack of attention in relationships causes infidelity 

Which creates a shift of stability 

People then become lost in a world of sin and greed 

With hopes of their bondages becoming freed

It is time to go back to the basics of love and life

The moments where romance begins with sacrifice

Courting and dating should be implemented and demanded 

If you desire respect and honor instead of being reprimanded 

We place our hearts in the field too soon with too much trust

And confuse genuine love with infatuation and lust 

Take your time and work on gaining a foundation 

Before you blast on social media your relational declaration 

We are destined to be happy with authentic joy and peace

Yet all these childish games and lack of effort must cease 

Success is determined by how bad you desire the outcome

But you rather settle for less with a lump sum

Because as time increase so does growth and maturity

That evolves the person into their purposed destiny

If you cannot handle a person at their worst then you do not deserve the best

So allow me to provide the eulogy to your love life because it has been laid to rest

  

Life and Favor: The Testimony Part 2

Life is a game of odds that are stacked up against you

With tactics and schemes to depress and oppress you

Growing up I was told that I would never amount to anything 

Yet on this day I can proudly say I own 3 class rings

My teachers in grade school had no faith in my future 

I was denied any assistance even from a scholar tutor 

My grades were average and my attitude was defiant

During recess I was the playground tyrant 

I got into fights and my suspension days increased 

As respect for me by the school’s staff had decreased 

Disproportionate from the track my parents had attempted to lead me onto

Quickly experienced some discipline that works effectively for a few 

For as I developed more into my identity and gained more awareness

I soon began to understand how my behavior was pure ignorance 

Many days I was faced with a battle to become better than my peers

Because I resented how their success always received cheers 

I knew I could be better than the next and defeat the stipulations 

So I decided to add God to my life’s equation 

Thereafter I received knowledge and understanding that change must occur

My mannerisms and demeanor transformed into clarity from a blur 

Determination settled into my soul as I acquired the beginning of my purpose 

As I excelled into new endeavors without allowing any opportunity to be missed

I experienced some road blocks along the journey I was assigned 

With the hopes of my career to rise and not decline

My scores of standardized tests do not meet to their scale 

Which translated to me that all I could do was fail

Yet I never gave up hope nor ceased from achieving my vision 

With God’s grace my destiny was going to explode like a head on collision 

Graduated from high school with an average GPA

Received acceptance to a four year university three times before May

Earned a four year degree with honors to match

Yet was terminated from my job three days after that caused a mental detach

But God is able to do anything but fail you see

I gained new employment with substantial favor and increase 

Then I began graduate school at an university that originally denied my application

Yet with God’s intervention He provided access without their nomination 

And now I have recently graduated with high honors and recognition once again

Because God had my destiny planned from beginning to the end

Although you must understand that this is just the beginning once more

As I continue to strive for greater because an eagle must soar

With renewed strength and higher purpose to obtain 

Settling for mediocre is purely insane

I was destined for great things before I was formed in the womb

And now I shall do greater works because His body ascended from the borrowed tomb

With access to all power from His hands to mine

My future shall be bright so prepare to get blind 

  

Ordained Love

It would be a dishonor on my part if I did not take you seriously 

Then again it would be ignorant of me to waste time you see

Because it is rare that a man can find a virtuous woman on earth

Searching through mountains and valleys with no source of worth 

These days it is uncommon for loyalty and respect to exist 

I believe that’s why Maxwell had so many tears in his fist 

But here I am to be the man you need and require 

To fulfill my purpose and God’s personal desire

For His plans for are a future and a hope, good and not disaster

While my plans are to commit and remain faithful to you and our Master

For marriage is not of us yet but of God and His institution 

We can restore His design by our obedience to His divine inception

  

There Is Hope

I search for a place in life where contentment and comfort meet

As I live my life purposefully to withstand defeat

For I am destined for great things as God has stated

Yet why on earth haven’t I been feeling elated 

What will it take for me to achieve an euphoric disposition

What will it take for me to dwell in His communion to hear His voice to listen

Because I am lost without His direction in this place I temporarily call home

With this destiny to touch lives as I tap into my zone

People expect so much out of you yet give nothing in return

I guess I gotta do like Usher said and let it burn 

No use to holding onto things that no longer serve a purpose

Yet I wonder in which season will my calling surface 

I have experienced a lack in mobility 

Although I know I am dependent on His ability

To do exceeding, abundantly and above all I may ask or think

But God is not a genie so it won’t be done after a wink

I have to trust in Him for my hope is in His grasp

As I cry night after night with my tears caught in His lap

At the throne of Grace I come to Him in humility and honor

With Jesus interceding on my behalf as my sponsor 

Holy Spirit take rest in me as I continue this journey that I was given

Because I desire to do more with this life that I was given 

I pray that there is more that God has for me to accomplish through His will for His glory

I cannot give up now because someone needs to know my story

  

 

Chemistry Chronicles

Once again my dear we connect as we meet

The molecules we exert will not accept defeat 

As wet as you are and as hot as I can be

The binding of our chemicals begin a chain reaction yearning to be set free

For we create something greater when we forge ourselves into one

Soon after our understanding commences as our purposes have begun

To emerge from the depths of your atoms that desire to be close 

Yet with reserved features because of the deadly dose

Too much of a good thing can cause lack of appreciation 

But with no initiative we are doomed to experience deprivation 

Nevertheless with the right balance of oxygen we both have no equal

So as we feed off each other’s periodic table we will become an invariable